hope not enough?

These past two days have been about me trying to think in terms of what I could potentially do for work.
I work part time now, but I have been thinking about going into something full-time or I have thought of producing something to market. 
My illness has really destroyed my sense of relationships, with others and myself. I need to arrest that 
relationship issue and make something better of it.
My hopes have been raised and dashed while thinking about the prospects of work. I think the worst part of all this, is the lack of facility with relationships and not a great sense of relationships effects one's ability in the working world (that's in the professional sense. in the personal sense is also a really bad effect.)
So, while I know it's important to keep hope and thoughtful for potentializing life - it's an uphill battle.
As it is for anyone I suppose. The qualities of the illness seem to knock me on my ass every time I try to make a effort. I don't know if anyone else goes through this. I'll wrangle it somehow.