Sensible and making a plan

I think I have been living in a dream. A dream of following or gliding along in my spirit and not feeling the outerlayer of structure in my life. I feel like I have been living in a bubble, of how I would like to see the world. I have been indulging my whims too.


For whatever reason, today I saw the world as I am. I know my family loves me, but I need more than family love to engage in life.


I have a few friendships - which I mostly communicate to over the internet.


Today I am realizing, I need to eat sensibly - I need to eat proper meals otherwise I will get moody. I can't drink alcohol without expecting to be moody for a couple of days after there. I realize I can love my siblings and my parents but can't expect them to be my life.


I am sitting here in my room, and I am realizing I need to make some plans for myself, be sensible and not so passive about just accepting what life sends my way. I can't live on shards of texts and emails, or Dr's calls. I need more.

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rubyblue
rubyblue

Mark, I could have written most of this myself. Its about expanding our life, littering it with dreams and possibilities. I passively sit and watch life go by. Have done for a very, very long time. I feel I know exactly where you are coming from

I'm thinking of making a life board. I've never really had too many dreams or passions, but time to take an active role in my life. A board will help me visualise things. Help me clarify what I want, and the steps I need to take to get there.

You deserve a fulfilling life Mark, and you have tons of self awareness and self reflection. Two very powerful tools. Maybe writing out what you want and how you might get it? Finding out exactly what we do want is hard, but hopefully its the first step towards change and fulfillment.
malibumark
malibumark

thank you so much Ruby. These are really inspiring ideas. I go to bed shortly - but I will read this again tomorrow after work. Thanks very much Ruby!!
beckyp
beckyp

You have really been contemplating your life lately and have come up with some good ideas on things you want to change. I think that takes a lot of courage.
malibumark
malibumark

thanks becky!