the soup's not good :)
I went to work today - and trained a new guy - it went well - but I have been noticing lately that my boss at the bakery and me - we just don't mix- like oil and water.. so there's politics - she gives me some assurance sometimes but I get along with others a lot better - I imagine in part it's just the hierarchy at work that I can't deny and the politics involved that I am seeming to notice - be more aware of -- and how it effects me - it does effect me. I also am starting to recognize and learn that (I kind of mentioned this before) we can't just meet eye to eye with all - we can some and not others - some days even not and some days yes - we're individuals. :)
so I am learning to just deal with diversity....and my feelings!!
I then came back to the house - another 'soup' of weirdness. The house manager on duty is - yadayadyada - never mind
I ask myself - do you think things like this affect everyone?
I just need to see beyond my feelings, and see that I DO want to do something besides withdrawing in my room - I look forward to volunteering with Arianna (my sister) this Sunday.
I see that I want to withdraw to like a hidden place to deal with the world - or maybe in truth not
deal with it. I am starting to recognize that I have to deal with life that it will be uncomfortable.
I can't seem to cocoon so much anymore --and yet "from" the soup of my pain and discomfort I can't seem to conceptualize what I want to do with my time. I do know now that I would like to do SOMETHING. So maybe it's getting better- maybe I am growing and learning.
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Hi mark,
Work can be frustrating and I think sometimes that I'm thinking too much about my relationships at work....my job IS my social activity really so I feel overly invested in it.
I hope the volunteering went well!
Sorry I'm not around much...I am busy trying to move and I have so much stuff to go through...gotta pace myself.
Hope you have a good week!
thanks Sensitive!