to make sense
i don't know why i feel so often 'at a loss' without direction, questioning why i am the way I am or drilling down. I want to reach out to others to reassure me.
I don't have a role, or rhyme or reason. I don't feel entitled or like I have permission - but I do have a sense that I deserve more out of life but I don't know how to find it. When I go to work in the morning - it's an non-negotiable thing that I go - and it orders my day and my soul.
Now that I am off- work - I watched a little tv - ate some snacks - got a coffee and it's just me.
I don't make sense. I don't seem to have a drive or an understanding in senses.
I think maybe if I make some goals non-negotiable that might be a method.
I stay mostly in my room. The house manager here is really bossy and tries to intimidate me.
Never matter. I hope you're having a good weekend
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Hey Mark, I think without any direction we can feel so very lost. I'm in the same place. Its hard when we are trying to find ourselves. Find our place in the world. Keep on at it Mark, your insight shows you have what it takes. Its all about working out what we want, which isnt as easy as it sounds.
Best wishes, you are on the right track. Even though it may not fully feel like it.
You have strength and courage, and an inquiring mind. All great characteristics to have. I feel you are authentic and genuine. And that's something very admirable too x
I know the feeling all too well in my empty-nest housewife gig. And then I get my focus and go for it and before I know it, I am getting the same set of feelings about being busy all the time. Oh for the love of balance.
I spend allot of time pondering the question of balance.
thanks very much!
Sorry Mark, you seem to be feeling down. I think you are a nice guy. That means a lot in this day and age. Just keep at things. With work etc. Maybe you can find something else down the road. Maybe you will eventually find something that you like.
thanks Chris!!!