interesting

I was watching France24 over the holidays and they had a round table discussion

about the wave of populism and the kind of 'downfall' of the Western Liberal state.

It was the determination or the agreement among the speakers that the west

needed and needs a foil to stay organized and healthy. They equated that the downfall of the Soviet

Union has now finally affected the west. Anyways - it was a wild thought.

Today I was wondering if it works for some personalities too. On the individual level.

Sometimes when I am alone I get so paranoid and angry - and yet I try and reach for reason, calm and

pacifying thoughts.. But I have historically been not so great while on my own.

I have been noticing and learning that it is easier for me to be negative than effective at times. Realizing that

is empowering change.

I know now I need to employ this 'energy when alone' to do something

productive and I will work on that. Even if it is just about being healthy enough to keep working

and coexisting well. I aspire for more though :).

I realize I react to others more than forge my own path.. I think I can reorient this. :)