night time thoughts

I was thinking today about how we can choose the type of life we have, we can choose the direction or the dynamic of it too-

it all went down hill from there - and I kind of lost myself in the mists of time passing by - and when I seemed at the whims of things I thought how I had respect for those who seem to be able to direct their lives well, for some, like me, it kind of felt like life chose me, and yet  for everyone there's a mix of chance and talent...

I think there are two sides of a coin here - and when I relax I can choose to have a negative attitude about my state of mind or the way I look at my life's development and my life's state of being or even the relative view I take of stuff.

I have some talents and can chose to see those as opportunity - I can chose to develop them, I can engage and appreciate them.

So for now I am thinking ...acceptance... of maybe the relativity of life (those peaks and valleys abound) for each of us can support that our own lives are just as good as any. I can take care of some things on a really technical level with saving or managing in some ways but also I can just get into what I do..it's my chance!