my body vents

i know this is kind of crazy but as I worked today, I kind of felt like I could and want to be doing something else with my life.

As I worked though, a side of me was egging for attention, it was like needing some encouragement and so I just self talked to myself to keep on task - and that this was just a bit of need while I kept on task..

as I worked I realized I was just one among the crowd - and I didn't really know what I was feeling, I was just working - and that's ok.

I came home - and got changed - listened to some really good music and then watched a little tv. I want to do more with my day -

that same needing to not be alone or do my work alone is coming back to me - but NOW in the time off from work, I need to self talk

as well or perhaps even more because I don't want to sit and be fallow. At work I don't have the opportunity to sit and be fallow. So here I am ready to get going. I feel like I am whining. Anyway gotta  go.