malibumark

I ordered a pizza and I've been in my room with a scented candle lit and the radio on. Me and Blue are now relaxing on my bed. The forces of habit, of being constantly engaged and in demand here at...

the last load of laundry is in the washer. I've trekked downto the dumpsters and back. My room has the perfume overwhelmingly of TIDEnow - could be worse!! hehe It's a good fresh scent. I am just...

got my sheets in the wash - vaccumed the room and cleaned out the kitty litter next up will betaking all the trash down to the dumpsters about nearly half a mile away...walking LOL.I'm tired already...

It's funny, I just realized here at the monastery, everyone is kind of in their own zone. They're focusing on their work and their practice (with god). It's finally making sense to me...and I can see...

It seems that managing my illness and the process of learning to do so, has really inspired meto abstract thinking about life and myself and learning not to be reactive but instead discoursive.This...

I realize I scrutinize things within my mind if you haven't noticed :( - this morning I was serving behindthe iconostasis - and I was fighting myself bigtime - it seemed thatmy higher power -...

feeling kind of meta in this journal... I had my therapy appointment today.I liked him. He put me in touch with my feelings in a way I haven't been.As soon as the appointment was over I couldn't wait...

I really enjoyed my new therapist. I've been thinking about him. I've got to shift gears now, as I'm kind of having tunnel vision. 

I know I go off the deep end with this stuff folks - I apologize -I just have to sort through what I am inspired to think about -My mind splits so easily - and frankly I get so frightened when I...

I came down to church at 5am and set things up, now I've been on my phone messing around.Things are good. Starting to plan a bit what I'll do with my free time today. I might clean the altar. I'll...

I have so much energy right now, mental energy, that is. I feel like a fake for how I am thinking about the monastery right now. I have to focus on carrying myself through to more stabile times and...

At first I thought this might be helpful to someone else...as it seemed helpful to me - and yet then when I decided to write it downI got interupted by a personal admin thing and so now I finally...

...like I began to talk about in the journal yesterday, 'people are not icons' -this was really helpful - especially this morning. I reached out to my brother to talkand he didn't answer the phone -...

I'm here in my room, under the covers because I have fever, aches and pains and dizziness. I am understanding that I may like a sensitively reasoned argument to life's questions and I care a lot but...