malibumark

It’s curious, being back in LA has really challenged and sparked awareness about how I’m self referencing. It seems kind of different from the monastery to here. I guess that's obvious and also...

It’s wild guys, I found myself aware of my own desires more so lately and yet then having the need to filter myself because I felt like my desires were not what I wanted it or myself to be if that...

hi s- (my therapist)i'm starting the day here - everything is disorganized.I paid a bill too early (compulsion of mine to pay everythingas soon as I get it) and now I am overdrawn on the card. My...

i found myself beleaguered by the irritations of dealingwith that nun who drives me crazy as well as our friend theabbess who seemed so hell bent on having a fighttonight.I hung in there - being...

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I found myself coming from my positive thoughts yesterday's writings  back to the collective group of the sisters this morning.I found myself responding to their dissappointmentin the relation to...

Just had my first massage in about 10 years and especially after the ascesis of the monastery I feel incredibly rejuvenated now. I’ll try to go once a month or every other!:)

It’s weird guys, I had the compulsion to send the previous journal to my Dad and sister. It was a stupid thing to do.They haven’t replied but already I find myself flattened and obliterated. My...

things are good guys.things are making sensei feel self possessed and better to shift gearsto that end result as well, when I lose track.. craziness is that I have this compulsion to writeand talk...

eureka - i hope this doesn't sound crazy or unscrupulous I thought about love - I thought about love as our common associationthat is a common ground -  I was holding on tight during service...