malibumark

....back to my reality.I have Blue to take care of - I am serving at altar tonight and I will say prayers for a friend in need.I am just kind of realizing what takes me back to the sense of my life...

Going to extremes with food drink or whatever tends not to be good for my biology, that includes journaling, but keeping in mind to journal can help engender an awareness of the good things in my...

negative family memories can flashback in our minds for all of us.I am starting to put those memories back on the bookshelf asif it were a book (look at it, dust it off and put it back.)i am also...

after a lot of spinning and trying to keep up with observations of my heart and head - trying to keep up with the two - to make sense of things - I finally gave up today and realized I can't live in...

Good morning! My day starts at 430a and now morning service and morning meal are over! Back with Blue in my room giving him attention after his morning alone time:)

hi ho folks, i am doing good. I had a full day of errands and chores todayand I served liturgy both morning and night as well.. towards the end of the services that I was conductinghere at the end of...

from what I talked to my therapist about - I can get real linear and - my linearity I've found is being easily derailed.I realized that I create a picture in my head - a world of an imagethat I use...

Something funny happened today.There’s a nun here, who is visiting and is super overbearing and crazy. I’ve mentioned her in my lamentations lolI’m dealing with her this morning and I’ve...

guys, i became really angry with my life today.i mean, i felt like i had to be aggressive to get any kind of work done.then that agressivity grew in an extremeness. little things angered meand so...

I have so much to be grateful for in life.I took some extra time for myself from monastic duties today - and I realized I feel a great hesitancyabout doing that here at a place where I am expected...

I think we all can get a little scared sometimes.When we're faced with life choices, leaps of faith, trustand considering what kinds of things we want in our lives, new directions.It's like I look...

Again I'm thinking to challenge certain pitfalls with my thinking. As in the last journal, I talked about how moments of disconnect can make me feel isolated, solitary, different and helpless. "But...