malibumark

it's my Dad's birthday. He turns 88 today. He just wants it to be celebrated just as any otherday. He's really an heroic Dad. I feel so blessed. I could sit and listen to him for hours.He's precious...

the definition i need or the validation or perhaps the understanding i need.I noticed that I was seeking something tangible or map worthy of my lifeas an artist and an individual for that matter...I...

I wonder if when my art becomes so personal for me, others don't have a way of accessing it emotionally or intellectually. I wonder if I need to make a bridge somehow creatively to communicate wit...

when i was younger, i would follow my romantic thoughts about life. I wanted to experience the fruitsof adult life and yet I wasn't so wise about the pragmatics of it....But now I am here in my cell...

feel so lucky.this morning i woke up and just yearned for freedom. freedom to do and be whoeveri wanted to be. felt trapped by the morning of duties here at the monastery - butthen we had morning...

I realized I tend to think in terms of ideals in terms of behavior and outcomes,in myself, in others and in situations that I am involved with.Real life has taught me I need to adjust my sights when...

I was going along today, after writing the last journal. I thought to myself of the frustration that I mentioned withmy mental health challenge but then also thought to remind myself about something....

Experiencing a lot of mental turmoil and fracturing today while conducting service. There was no center to my mind, scrambled eggs. I felt awful, angry and again revisiting the observation why I have...

 Yesterday I kept saying to myself I can't wait to get into service, I had nervesabout socializing and just about everything. And serviceseemed so inviting and safe to be wrapped up in the sacred...

I was driving into Frederick earlier, on my way to get a haircut and a beard trim,and I started to think about the last journal entry I made. About how I was seeing through the storm - accepting...

I was serving today like most mornings but had a very hard time mustering the enthusiasm for a vibrant presentation.. i wasn't being lazy, i just couldn’t summon the control or strength. Reading...

My mind is very creative. If I'm not immersed in work, a group activity or then in the process of taking care of life, I know my mind will 'act up' if I don't have a creative project. I'm realizing...

hi peeps, just wanted to say hello and have a good day.Services went well and then we had morning mealand then we had a special "trisagion" or service for repose,which I conducted too.That went well....