malibumark

I called my family last night over an issue that had me worked up and considering leaving the monastic community.This morning I woke up and thought about it and sent the following to my parents:Hey...

the turkey bird is not named after the country. The name came about due to a case of mistaken identity and trade routes, as European traders who brought the bird to Europe were the same ones who...

Happy Thanksgiving. If you feel alone or if people seem cold, if all that makes you circumspect about your life, of what is or is not in it, come sit by me and we'll make a Thanksgiving meal and...

I’ve gotten myself into a pickle here. They’re very kind and treat me to some wonderful experiences but I feel very aware of my mental limitations and kind of the cutting nature of their everyday...

I wrote this to the elder: I’m thinking about the title of your book ‘the enemy within’ . Sometimes when I try to sleep or when I first wake up I experience this. It is unpleasant and it is...

I'm curious about the world but I've got to hold down 'my fort' still. I used to question so expansively and enthusiastically but I know now I also need to keep focused and take care of my life as...

In the past I have tended to exist in a separate place in my head to dealwith life as it happens and the rollercoaster of processing feelings and input from the outsideworld as well as from within...

It's a cold Autumn night, but grateful to be safe and warm with my copilot inside.

it's interesting how I struggle with the servicesnot because the service changes but becauseI change and each day I am like a new personchallenged to find the dogma and routine again.it has gotten...

I started the morning in a mood which started when I got a text at 3am. There was a back and forth and I then rested a little bit and started the day. I conducted services and had the morning meal....

I don't know if the world had changed or just the way I feel about it. My appetite is huge but it's not at odds with my survival set, which perhaps unfortunately was the way it once was. Keep hungry....