malibumark

Had a good meeting with my therapist last night. I don’t know why I don’t have the wanderlust that I used to. But I’m comfortable  and shouldn’t try to be something I’m not anymore.It’s...

i had some really insightful ideas this morning while serving.I was thinking about D and the intense conversationI had with him last night. Just had a sense of his intensepower boundary - and so I...

I taught a priest to conduct services this morning. I tend to be a very compassionate teacher but I realized today only liberalism is not effective and that you have to have some structure and...

the boundaries here at the monastery can be very rigid.the focus on the rules more than empathy and communication is mind numbing.I learned a really interesting coping mechanism though, yesterday. It...

It’s funny. I’ve been thinking about my life and the job I am looking for and would get and for some stupid reason my mind goes towards what would be worthwhile to my family (prestige or respect...

I'm finding my sense of identity really well couched here at the monastery the more I live here the more I get to see how things are here and in life in general and understand them too. I've often...

I am one lucky mofo I am so grateful!

hi guys, i am in bed with some intestinal issues.i'm watching the bbc news on my laptop.father christopher came by to tell me he was leaving.we hugged which made me feel better.it really makes a...

I'm starting the day - I layed in bed for a little bit - and my mind yearned for somethingto believe in - to give me strength - to answer unanswered questions about myself and my life. A voice of...

I think I am struggling with the interdependence in my lifepast present AND now future - there was a priest at the all male monastery callled Vatopedi in GreeceI really could relate to - now I am...

I had a good night, and then came down to church to set up and conduct the preliminary part of the service but not all of it as I am having an mri this morning.I started to reject the monastery this...

Still taking the CBD, it’s still working. Yesterday’s 'day to myself' was wonderful. First time in 2 years here that I’ve been without duties. I got myself a very nice dinner at a new...

Does every morning a new mystery of life present itself to you and most everyone?

I know that I have gotten a real sense of peace about being here at the monastery.I've come to understand and know that there's no perfect place nor am I perfector are others. The lesson of so many...