malibumark

I’ve gotten myself into a pickle here. They’re very kind and treat me to some wonderful experiences but I feel very aware of my mental limitations and kind of the cutting nature of their everyday...

I wrote this to the elder: I’m thinking about the title of your book ‘the enemy within’ . Sometimes when I try to sleep or when I first wake up I experience this. It is unpleasant and it is...

I'm curious about the world but I've got to hold down 'my fort' still. I used to question so expansively and enthusiastically but I know now I also need to keep focused and take care of my life as...

In the past I have tended to exist in a separate place in my head to dealwith life as it happens and the rollercoaster of processing feelings and input from the outsideworld as well as from within...

It's a cold Autumn night, but grateful to be safe and warm with my copilot inside.

it's interesting how I struggle with the servicesnot because the service changes but becauseI change and each day I am like a new personchallenged to find the dogma and routine again.it has gotten...

I started the morning in a mood which started when I got a text at 3am. There was a back and forth and I then rested a little bit and started the day. I conducted services and had the morning meal....

I don't know if the world had changed or just the way I feel about it. My appetite is huge but it's not at odds with my survival set, which perhaps unfortunately was the way it once was. Keep hungry....

starting the day here. it's a cold blustery fall morning.sunny and only a few clouds slipping along in the sky.I went and bought a coffee and drank itat my leisure in the coffee shop. At 10am I'll...

I am so grateful for my life.It seems I want so many things separately from where I am right now,but I recognize that what I have chosen, the monastery, is a fulcrum of love.Ilness or no illness....

As I try to make sense of my day, I also try to make sense of my life, the context of small things and then the wide scope comes to mind. One serves the other sometimes to help me with reminders that...