malibumark

I'm weary mentally for having woke up with my mindfiring away at me in a way that I could not stay on top of.Call it creativity or human animal nature. All sorts of mental wrong turns ensued.My mind...

I put up the lights and I might get some garland too. Blue and I are resting before I go to midnight vigil!

I do feel incredibly lucky to be safe amongst fellow vulnerable people here on the site and where I live here at the monastery. Sorry I get so objective sometimes. My mind has a weird way of making...

I've got the morning off. Hanging with Blue, listening to the radio and got the window cracked open for some cold Fall air! A priest's room.

I know I can't see my misgivings about makinga path forward for my self to be a 'non starter.'I am not the only who feels insecure or perhapstoo weak in the face of the enormous new pathahead of me....

I was taking a break from services this morning and then errands in Frederick.I was laying here with Blue and I felt out of control. I was trying to feel groundedI tried to pull myself down from all...

I paid all my bills this morning! A good feeling. I've set up church and service starts soon. 

I think maybe we're meant to be tortured, otherwise we wouldn't be conscious, we would stand for any old standard and we would get nothing done.Ill be grateful and keep on keeping on.

I know I've talked to you guys about having a 'challenge of the day' and my thoughts go towards trying to motivate myselfto get on with the chores and responsibilities in life.I was out this morning...

my mind is like an open soreit's hard to keep moving forward I’m in bed resting and burying my head in the pillow.I can’t possibly think about all the things I am supposed to be. But laying here...

Learning. I sent this to my therapist: The nuns are so crazy sometimes. Again very much like an episode of Portlandia. They’re very reactive to anything that makes waves or is a point of...

I was finding my steady strength in service tonight- understanding how to keep my focus on the workwhile also dealing with the invariable creative mind that i have that upsets me or tries to knock...

Every once in a while this happens to me. I'll stalemate over whether to do something or not to do something.Ive been realizing too lately that I'll always be agitated and caught up in processing...