malibumark

I am waiting for a video call with my therapist.I can't wait - but I can't see her as my 'saving angel' either.I have to be self responsible. The work here at the monastery is really dragging me...

I think optimism is so important and is underrated. :)

The lesson here today, as me and my family are evaluating whether this monastery is good for me, may be that there is no perfect family (monastic family) or place to be. This monastery is like a...

I’m thinking about my brother in his life in Athens. I really admire his self regimentation and discipline and his mix of happy things in his life too. When I lived in a city I lived in a routine...

Quite honestly guys, you know I tend to gnash and gnarl away at thoughts and ideas...then producing some kind of conclusion which I post here or send to someone close. I think it just might be the...

I went to bed last night, and I layed awake waiting for sleep to come.I felt that familiar old sense of self - that sense of my life and all it'sabilities and disabilities. I don't know how to...

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It started as a good and now I’m angry. Just the aggression thrown at me makes me bristle and I have to be positive. I’m gonna look for a little piece of chocolate:)Hope your day is going well 

i've been thinking about my fear of commitment - in the context of this place/monasteryi've also been thinking about how I can get mighty restless - wanting to just bustout and do or go somewhere...

there's no perfect place - but I wrote this and I'm just wondering about stuff.the luxury indeed of having time to wonder... here it is - it was a text to my sister:Hi A, I know I’ve complained a...

I write this while I am on the returning plane. Things are good, though a bit bitter sweet but love and appreciation are growing.I'm finding commonality with others in life, perhaps everyone to a...

The trip was good. I am at the airport now waiting to board.i'm thinking about the trip and getting to start taking care of myself and my life again.For some reason i thought about the social graces...

Hi guys,  things are going pretty good, lots to tell you about what’s happening. I realize this morning as I felt the strain of my crazy mind as I was walking along with a priest and then at a...

When nothing makes sense, just take it one step, one day at a time.This is the first time in a long time i haven’t been at service every day. It’s maybe an important‘workout’ for me to have....