So wonderful to have a day off

I ordered a pizza and I've been in my room with a scented candle lit and the radio on. Me and Blue are now relaxing on my bed. The forces of habit, of being constantly engaged and in demand here at the monastery are fighting me and my mind with this free unstructured time. I'm remembering the lesson though to just ask myself'what do I need to do right now.' And the answer is just relax. The nerves go to thinking about my whole life, but again I can assuage that kind of thing/panick. I'm saving money, I keep up my responsibilities, I have Blue here and all is taken care of for now. Just relax and be peaceful.

Have a good night you guys!