Energy
I have so much energy right now, mental energy, that is. I feel like a fake for how I am thinking about the monastery right now. I have to focus on carrying myself through to more stabile times and just keep the one step at a time going with me as I go through the day. I felt really in touch with my truth, unrelenting, but I know I have to manage my feelings and not just deal with my intellectual framework.
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I know those surges of mental energy can feel really unsettling. As you said, one step at a time. Sending hugs of support your way.
thanks judy! xxx
I felt like a fraud at services tonight...but I brought myself back by thinking about any relationship. Do I feel like
the relationship I have with the monastery has changed? Is it time to move on or is it simply just the anxious
anticipation of my new therapy appointment on Wednesday and also the feeling of my mixed up
feelings about interacting with the sisters tonight? The community here can be nice - but I also cherish alone, creative
time. I loved what you, Judy and Bob said in response to this entry and the last - both were so encouraging
and enlightening! Thanks you guys for helping me feel like a normal adult who simply has relationship issues
with his job and where he is living and that seems something pretty much not too uncommon! :)
LOVE!!!
Mark
I think I have my own expectation for how things are supposed to go with relationships with my work and my coworkers.
I was saying the prayers of the service and feeling so not into it or believing it - I found my new perspective both today
and recently has helped me assert more of what I want....be more comfortable with my choices and I know getting what we want in life isn't always in the cards for a lot of us...maybe I have had a kind of iconography within (to an extreme?). It's making sense tonight
Big hug sweetie...I agree thst those surges of energy can be troublesome when you don't know what to do with them
I also agree that it's wonderful that you've gotten back into art
It's a huge part of you and something you're passionate about
I wouldn't worry about not feeling the service tonight
You know what your beliefs are and so does God
I've been in a mental place where I didn't feel God and a mimister told me that I should just know he's there
Thanks Jan!