malibumark

If I'm honest with myself, knowing that I am at the helm of what I do when my mood goes south, it's pretty eye opening to know that I do have certain things I do unconsciously as a way to deal with...

It’s interesting guys, this morning I thought about why had been experiencing some abdomen pain for the past few months. I went to the doctor to get it checked out. It occurred to me as I was...

I wonder if I am guilty of falling into the status trapwhen it comes to evaluating my life and my achievements.I find myself aware of the fact that I am fulfilling my needs bygoing for certain things...

I've got to be self responsible about that too.:)My impulse is to be alone in my room. With Blue. Ensconced in the coziness here. Having my mind wander and wonder adrift in my feelings. But I'm...

I had a family zoom call this morning, like we do every Sunday. It went really well. It was very nice and i'm feeling comfortable and positive with where I live in life right now . After the call I...

just started to look for work again. i researched a local winery for a job, as oneof the lodgers here just started working at one, it gave me the idea to pursue it.She loves it. She's a host and...

Finding peace because I need it.You guys and this place are so special.I find myself swimming in the anxiety and peace of the moment. Full tilt chores here as the monastery opens up again. I have...

Some great So Cal flowers from one of my hikes a few years ago

I push myself until i break. I seriously felt tired after the busy morning and mentally fragile- like I really needed to rest. My impulse is to push myself to do the more work needed. That my well...

I'm learning so much about life.I griped to my sister in a text last night and this morning, I followed up with another.Just saying stuff about the discomfort here at times but I've learned so much...

I think my sense of intellect and awareness has been so buried by my body - that I have seen issues of desireand attraction without a sense of stopgap. The reasonwhy I don't go indulging every...

I am sitting here in my room - not doing much - after a day of work for the sisters.I have my roasted dandelion tea which is so roasty tasting. It's good - buta leap from the herbal teas I am used...

I am waiting for a video call with my therapist.I can't wait - but I can't see her as my 'saving angel' either.I have to be self responsible. The work here at the monastery is really dragging me...