here at the apt. 612 think tank :-)

I have had a full day so far. Woke at 3am, got to the job - and worked until 8am.

Came home. Had lunch. Changed clothes...and went to the office for a couple of hours.

Followed my routines and now it's me following the structure of the remainder of my day. It's funny though.

I want to sit at this computer and type out my communications and thoughts to you guys.

I doubt this is read by many except for a select few, but it's interesting. Doing this has become

a healthful, healthy providing outlet for me to help me deal with my life. I'll go to yoga at 145p.

I felt fragile earlier - heck I feel fragile a lot - but I have started to keep a sense of structure

and the usefulness of it - to grasp for - and help me like throwing a grappling hook up a steep wall

as a way to pull myself up from the blindness of a funk. I may still feel bad and fragile but if I keep at the 

tools and sense of structure and commonality that I've received from therapy - and my own work - then a sense of stability comes while going

through the mess.  Everyone's got problems and if you look all around you, you can see people coping with them.

All in different ways - stabilizing themselves some ways - and a lot of the times talking it through with a good friend.

Things are good for now.. Here at think apartment 612 think tank. :-) Fragile but good.