malibumark

I am becoming more and more aware that my mindwhen it's left to my own devices, I 'project' that there isdisappointment and enmity towards me.I pushed that aside as I know it's not true - I saw a...

the sadness is setting in again. I am trying to go to sleep but it seems like if I don't have somethingthat reflects my place in the world I start to get sad and I am trying to shift gears with it...

I liked Jans reference to a young child who decided to be happydespite a handicap. Because he "Like being happy."An old friend had also said to me "I choose happy"and Jan's comment brought up that...

I like the purpose of relying on the daily structure of the monastery when I visit there..itfeels really inspiring and motivating..I'm finding a similar joy in taking care of my own life and what I...

I came to see my parents today and I got to their house before they got home from the gym. Not a good idea.I was sitting on their living room couchand watching tv in their living room and I started...

Rise and shine. Made some coffee, cuddled with Blue and watched some tv. It's chilly so I turned on the heat.I think I'll take a shower now and dress. I have a family zoom call at 9am. Then onto the...

I had a busy day...early this morning I had planned to go to Ventura, CAso I got up early, made coffee and breakfast and then drove up the coast. It was such a nice place. I'mdefinitely going back. I...

I came home from work about 40 minutes ago.Ate a different kind of lunch than usual and sat on the couchwith the tv on and have just been biding my time until I jumpin the shower and dress. For some...

it's mighty weird but I am seeing my pattern hereof my my blindness to my own feelings of whenI am either bored or not enjoying what I am doingand then it's like I want to reach out to others to...

outside of my normal routine this weekend is really challenging my gripon the here and now - i've noticed it, now...so I've caught it and am startingto do chores and clean up like I want to before...

Can you be alone and entertain yourself? I put that question to myself today...You can have self discipline but you don't need to deny your feelings... I told myself - and today I was not doing the...

go to the gym and workoutgo to the museum at 12pmgo for a walk outsidego to the pubgo to churchgo for a walk around the shopsget a coffeemake some artwrite some journalscontact friendsmake sure my...

my therapist talks about her enjoyment of public gardensand how in her time off she really enjoyings going to themfinding a bench to sit on and she then just thinks about things.I'm finding that idea...