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I have learned a good deal from my trip to Florida (with my Aunt and cousins) and then to Maryland (with my friend the Abbess and folks at her monastery.) Both the differences in culture from here in...

I woke up this morning - well in that stage of waking and sleeping and I felt sure of myselfand not fragmented. I knew what I would talk about with my therapist today - and thenmy mischievous mind...

You can suddenly feel like so much of yourself is wanting or lackingand that drive to measure up starts in full force so that you tear yourself down or beat yourself up...but what do you do then?you...

I had an "upheaval of a morning" but felt the warm embrace and conviviality of being in this monastic community.I was feeling some how at odds with it all today. I know I have to be self responsible...

Still here at the monastery and the Abbess and I talked about me coming here to stay for a trial period (my suggestion and she liked it.)It's super relaxed and loving here. I initially projected...

When I think people are insecure around me I tend to think it's because something I've done or am doing.I tend to take it on and it stays with me for quite a while after the interaction.2 things....

My Aunt and I came back from a morning of doing errands and then also to a visit to The Morikami Museum and Gardens. It was very very beautiful. My Aunt's friend Marsha is a docent there and she...

Still on my trip. Went for a nature walk this morning. Things are. My mind took a wrong turn early this morning and that kind of set the tenor of an unstable morning. I'm taking it in stride, trying...

It's 445am and I'm waiting at the gate for a 6am flight. Nothing is open, it's still dark out and so it's just me and the phone:-). 

I've heard it said before but maybe life is just 'moments.'i came home from my parents' house today and got everything ready for the trip tomorrow. I felt nervous and anxious and then was awakened to...

I leave for the airport at 345am on Monday morning.I am really looking forward to the trip.Right now, I have packed my bag and checked most things off the listthat I thought to have with me.I am...

it takes an effort to get going with projects that seem daunting with no organizationbut I'm taking it one step at a time...and I'm getting in touch with the joys ofself responsibility. I was...

I had the meeting with my therapist, and it went well. She is such an amazing person.After the meeting I went out for some gelato and a big maple cookieat a place called Tifa. Best ice cream and...

I was sitting on the couch after coming home from work...still buzzing afterrunning full tilt at the job for 4 hours....After work my body and mind were wanting so much of a linearity - a kind of...