trying to have a happy day...going up and down with my mood
I'm battling today, as usual I suppose...
I found myself experiencing some anxiety as I was and still am alone
today (but Blue is here!!)
and I thought to reach for a calming perspective "well I get that way
sometimes while alone" - that stabilized me for a little while...
then memories of my mom came back to me - and her demanding nature
just dragged me down and felt it in my heart and soul.
So now I am back home after running and errand for my Dad.
Just dealing with my sinking heart.
I know we all have preferences and unavoidably feel equivocal about
relationships (even in our family) because of it.
So, I am trying to think on things like that - and not expect to be
happy but hope to be effective.
I'll watch a movie.
I'll do the dishes first.
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((((Mark))))))
Here with you amigo. Sounds like we are kinda having similar days, I hope you end up watching a good movie & you can chill with Blue, watch the movie & it helps. Maybe I’ll do that too, try to watch a movie or something (hoping my brain can pay attention to it)
Sending support, strength & many prayers
Big hug <3
sadness and anxiety often cover up some seriously good stuff.
let yourself fall into the abyss
as an act of faith
not of remiss
what causes fear
so often lives near
the greatest treasures of life
thanks arfie. I was thinking about my mom and i had some insights about her - that helped me be at peace
with her and my own journey as well.
thanks lil-missy! I am going to turn on the tv now. I am stuffing my face with pretzels with peanut butter inside :)