daily 'bumps in the road' processing journal :)

I am starting to have a healthier relationship with my feelings.

I mean I am totally beholden to the psychiatric and psychological

communities and the community here, but, now I have a greater view

of how I relate to my feelings, how each of us has feelings

and we all have to process events and somehow manage ourselves....

Then we all have to get on with our lives.

So tonight I am just processing some social activity I had at the CMATO.

But I am going to give myself the lattitude to say to myself 'in time things will get

more familiar and we'll be able to be better more aquainted friends.'

I was lying down in bed tossing and turning a bit about the growing longing inside

for socializing and community. I had to do something about all those conflicted feelings which were saying

doom and gloom and so I 

knew I had to reach into my toolbox of things 'to do when you need to process.'

I've tried the usual stuff, so I am just trying additional things tonight. I guess every night's

got a different mix of things that works.

I'm doing ok I think. I'll get back to bed.