malibumark

it seems I am forever trying to understand my natureso that I can live with myselfI think there will always be mysteries aheadbut the lattitude or flexibility for being readyfor the rough spots or...

it ocurred to me that I've been living with this sense that "I am almost there.."Almost finished almost ready to have a life...When in fact I've decided to just enjoy stuff instead.I remember Arfie...

Here I am. I've got so much to be grateful for and indeed I am starting to relax. I put on the AC. I lit a scented candle and am about to turn on some classical music.But just a little  while ago I...

So grateful for my life. I am so lucky and live beautifully. Have a wonderful family and friends.  I woke up slowly this morning and had coffee and juice in bed. It was so peaceful and nice and...

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do you ever find you're always running from one place to the next?Filled with so much go go energy (excitement and anxiety) and not able to appreciate where you are or the moment?These thoughts are...

I just had a meeting with the founder and executive director of a start up museum here in Thousand Oaks called CMATO. I am so excited to have found this place and our meeting was a meet and greet for...

Do we all question the impact of our thoughts and actions and then look for hope or reassuring, forgiveness in your community or redemption?I am grateful for the hope I get from religion as well as...

I have thought about going to the monastery tonight and the comfort it gives of living in a communitywith a common purpose is definitely something that I like very much. IKnowing people are thereand...

While at work today I was confronted by a painful memoryand for the mindset that I was in - it made me look at certain relationshipswith a greater respect.I drove home contentedly. I felt like I had...

therapy really strung me out on the past today.but I have got to keep strong - keep on keeping on...i know i don't have to be perfect, especially here,so I am just venting it out and trying to move...

rest,relaxation,refreshing,nourishing,recuperatingenjoying.

Lying here in bed trying to sleep,all sorts of upsetting nonsense going through my head. Just got to accept my messed up nature as 'it is what it is.' That will be my passport to peace tonight.

I have the rest of the day free and open, unplanned except forgetting ready for work later this afternoon... and then I'll be watchingthe news and then to bed. I thought of some new thoughts today...