Good morning

Kick start to the day. I woke up around 4a and couldn't sleep anymore. I went to the kitchen and made a pot of coffee. I've been reclining in bed, leaning up against the head board and drinking coffee with the tv on low. I'll jump in the shower soon. I've been thinking about the sense of awe that I have some times when the day is new and my mind questions the 'vast undefined.' But I'm telling myself I just need to gently focus and take care of the stuff of life, the day in front of me and that is the logic and reason I can give that early morning amorphousness. As much as that makes sense...Survive. 

I've also been thinking about the monastery and how when I go there, it's not just about my experience of spirituality while there but it's about the hierarchy of the Abbess's and her leadership. This thought is helping me recognize what is hers and also what is mine. It's a positive step that kind of helps me find my place in the world.

Have a good morning.