gkg21
Status: I have overcome many obstacles in my life. Grief, I cannot overcome. It lurks in the shadows, waiting, waiting. It comes, as someone said,
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Today was so-so. I slept pretty late and that was good. Then I took some more stuff to my oldest sons house. I sat around and visited with him while he painted. That was nice. Usually I...
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Another day under my belt...It was a hard one. I reallly felt lethargic today in spite of the beautiful weather. Then, I began cleaning. Manic, I think. In so many ways I am thrilled for the...
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Thank goodness it is Friday...well it really is Sat. now but haven't been to bed yet, so...I started taking an anti-depressant again. I hate meds but it does seem to be helping a little bit. At...
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I just found and added another photo of Scott from Halloween 2006. It was taken in the old playhouse my sons grandpa built for them. As the boys grew they would just hang out in it calliing it...
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Sun. 10-28-07: I picked up a fall decoration for Scott's grave and took it to him. I cried so hard. It hurts so much to go there. Of course it hurts where ever I am. I just can't seem to...
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Sat. night, 10-27-07:It is actually still Sat. except this will say Sun. Today was a strange day. I was really cranky this morning. This afternoon my husband and I took a bunch of stuff to our...
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FRIDAY!!! I am so glad! I am so tired! My pain comes in waves. I feel so-so one minute and the next I feel like I felt when I found Scott...hysterical, in shock, unable to breathe, etc. I just...
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This is a journal for the Charity Grant. I would love to have money donated to The Children's Miracle Network. In fact that was my request in Scott's obituary, too. They have helped us so much...
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October 25: I am still so down! I am really trying to feel better. So many friends, mine and Scott's have called or emailed me 'cause they knew Scott's birthday would be hard. I feel very...
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October 23: Well, Scott's birthday was yesterday. I visited the cemetery. It was so hard. I had a meltdown at school. It is Red Ribbon Week and the music teacher was telling the kids about...
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October 18: Well, it is nearly 2 a.m. I have to be up again in 4 hrs. I am just so troubled. I can't believe I will never see my "baby boy" in this lifetime again. It hurts so much! I look...
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October 17: Another day, another struggle. Seems like I just get worse. I went to a Compassionate Friends Mtg. last night. It helps a little but it is so painful. And, it hurts that there...
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October 14: Well, I survived the 17th week since Scott died. I don't know how. So many days I get up and wonder how in the world I can get through another day. I am not looking forward to...
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October 12: I am really struggling today. Well, really all week. I miss Scott so much more each day. I am so tired of this pain. It has been nearly 17 weeks and although the tears are less...
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October 1: Whew...what a day! Not as bad as some but....My mom's neighbor called and said Mom was really sick. I went over right after work. She had not eaten in 2 days and mostly had been...
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