gkg21
Status: I have overcome many obstacles in my life. Grief, I cannot overcome. It lurks in the shadows, waiting, waiting. It comes, as someone said,
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(Thurs. night) One of my autistic students asked me, 1st thing this morning, why I looked so tired. Now that is bad that even the young, specical ed., ones notice..... My oldest son, Chris,...
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(Wed. night) A few positives in my life today....The life insurance is going to pay. We have waited nearly 6 months to find out. It is just enough to pay for the funeral and get a headstone. ...
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Back to work today...I was just sitting here giving some of my friends "hugs". I can't seem to do multiple hugs so to anyone I missed and/or who is reading this, Big hugs to you too. Anyway, as...
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Today has been another hard one. I started out so-so. This afternoon I went into Scott's room for less than 5 minutes and had a major meltdown. Knowing that I will never see him again is...
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All that worrying about Thanksgiving was for naught. I was sooo sick! Stomach stuff. I slept 'till 4:30 p.m. Guess my body showed me the way. Craig went to his sisters anyway, which was...
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It is Thanksgiving Eve and I am a mixture of emotions. I made a nice ham dinner tonight. Adam (20), my husband, and I had a nice, quiet meal. Then I cooked ham and beans for Thanksgiving dinner...
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I went to The Compassionate Friends meeting tonight. It, as usual, painful but also beneficial. I always come away with something that I can use....or at least try. There was a father there...
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(Monday night) First of all thanks to all you have shared comments with me on my journals. I guess I will go to the Thanksgiving dinner. It is at noon and we should be out of there by 2 or 3. I...
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It is still Sunday to me... This has been a rough weekend. Scott has been gone 5 months as of yesterday. My Thanksgiving plans have changed. I am not thrilled. We are going to Craig's...
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Well, I have survived the 5 month anniversary of Scott's death. I don't know how. Everyday I wake up and think I don't know if I can do this again. Somehow I have. One breath at a time. I...
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Another week finished. I am having a rough day/night. That sick, hollow, feeling in my stomach is at full tilt. It seems I never know when it will hit the hardest for no particular reason. ...
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One more day almost over! I am not living anymore. Just breathing. I go to work, come home, nap, eat, TV, & computer. That's all. I don't have the energy or "want to" for anything else. ...
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Well, I had 3 days off and did virtually nothing. That is ok. I needed that. Today I went to the cemetery and cried. As always. I don't know why I go. I think I just need to make sure it...
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I went to a site called Last-Memories.com tonight. I posted a lot of photos of Scott. If anyone wants to look his address is: http://Scott-Grant.last-memories.com It is a work in progess but...
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I added Scott's Sr. pic tonight. (Sun.) This was taken not too long after his 1st car accident. Anyway, I had previously mentioned the cross on the barn wall by his left arm. After 3 years I...
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