gkg21
Status: I have overcome many obstacles in my life. Grief, I cannot overcome. It lurks in the shadows, waiting, waiting. It comes, as someone said,
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Friday eve., July 3, 2008: Mostly today was frustrating. I called the SS office to inquire about the status of Scott's benefit. My last call was in May. The hearing was in March. Anyway,...
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Wed. eve., July 2: I am better today. I don't know why. I spent some time in the pool and that helped although I can't relax the way I used to. I gave my old metal lawn chairs a 2nd coat of red...
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Monday eve.: Don't know how I really feel today. I slept most of it away. Do I care???? Not so much. But I do get frustrated because then I don't get anything done. Although, I probably...
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Sun. Eve: I am reallllllly getting tired of this....I just have that "empty gut" feeling all the time! I guess with Mellisa's passing, Scott's angel date, and now the 4th of July, I am just having...
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Wed., 6-25-08: A little better today....I finally got to get in the swimming pool. I have had it set up since the weekend before Memorial Day. It has just been too cool, rainy, & windy. I...
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I am still in a funk. But, 1st thing this morning my friend from Kansas called and she is coming to visit Friday morning. I imagine she will stay at least the weekend. I haven't seen her since...
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Sunday Night-Late (Early Mon.) I am so depressed! I am using orange type because I have heard orange helps. No luck yet.... I slept nearly all day! I just didn't feel a need to get up. I...
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Late Saturday night: Today, June 21, 2008, was the 1 yr. date of Scott's funeral. It was actually worse than the 17th. I remember when they closed the lid I knew that would be the last time I...
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Late Tuesday Night/Early Wed.: Well, I made it through Father's Day and Scott's 1st angel date. June 21st was the day we buried him. I am keeping busy getting ready for my garage sale the...
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It is late Sat. night or early Sun......Father's Day. We lost Scott on Father's Day 2007, although his actual angel date is June 17th. I am so sad. I remember I saw him alive last the night...
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Thursday Night-late: I don't even know how I feel these days. I had a really hard night last night. I feel like I let my son die because I didn't go in and check on him soon enough. I just know...
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Sunday night late: I am still trying... These past couple of weeks have been so tough! Adam was having a really hard time today as this would've been his and Melissa's 18 month anniversary of...
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FRIDAY NIGHT: It is one day shy of 2 wks. since Melissa's passing. I am still in shock, I think. I miss her a lot! It is just 11 days until Scott's 1st angel date. I have been remembering...
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Sunday Night: It is a little over a week since Melissa died. Her Mom came over yesterday and brought a plant, to me, in an Angel vase and pink/yellow roses for Adam. He was always giving her...
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Wednesday night: First of all, to those who have sent such kind messages, thank you. As always, you are my strength when I cannot stand alone. Such a loss! I adored Melissa! It is like losing...
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