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I dont feel quite so bad today.In fact, i had a great day at the school open day. I helped in the coffee shop for the boarders all day. I was there last year, so I knew what to do so that gave me an...

I have fallen off my horse.I am as sad as sad can be. I hate it. I am hoping it is as I am premenstrual too. I thought my period was due a week ago, so maybe that is why.I cannot see reason. I know...

Apparently he has had 35 women. 35.I cant believe there have been that many as he is quite shy generally, and it really has only been in the last 18 months perhaps that I have seen him actually flirt...

I cannot believe that I have been sucked in by such a narcissitic arsehole for so long.Lindsay tells me he is not only still calling Rowena, but that also he took her out to dinner last Thursday...

I am feeling lonely, but I am getting by.I am in Townsville by myself. I set up so that I am busy. I rowed this morning in a four which was nice, although we got no coaching. I am playing golf with...

I have been thinking about my whole situation and trying to be strong. I have not called nor sent any text messages to him.Just now he sent me a message saying "what are your thoughts today". I sent...

I am back in Brisbane, shaken from last night.Had a few nice days on the boat despite the weather. Lindsay was good company too as he asked about me. We have known him for 20 years.Mark was chatting...

I am in the same situation again. Again. Again.I sit and feel sad for myself and he is in Townsville with his mate Lindsay and does not even bother calling me and when I call him, it is like it is an...

I am pissed off today as I seem clingy again for him and I dont want to be. I was better the last few days and now I am back to wanting to be with him and I dont know why.I still see the same...

As each day goes by I think more and more about how this needs to be over. I dream about it, I think about it all day and each time I wake up. I think about what i would like and what I dont have,...

Today I was just thinking of the big picture more. How my future has been uncertain for a long time and perhaps that is my fear. The fear of not having what I have spent 26 years building - the...

I am not feeling any better. he was not good with me in Brisbane as per usual.I dont know why i just cant say go away and be done with it. He sits around feeling sorry for himself here and has no...

last night he was almost like a different man again. A little more animated and interested in sex. A bit short with me when I helped with the boat, and not overly enthusiastic over dinner, but keen...

I had a good day yesterday. I woke feeling ok and stronger after seeing Mark the night before and deciding he was fucked in the head and that I did not want him at all.I went for a 10 k row in a...

Feeling crappy again.He sent me a text message last night that said that our marriage was a farce and that if there was not a Rowena or Margaret in the future then there would be someone else.I sent...