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Another crappy day. I am so sad all the time and i hate it. I cry all the time and that is not who I am or ever was. How can this be happening to me?He is silent again and I guess it is his way of...

Despite all those text messages and conversations of encouragement by him, he is as usual, his normal self. He has come back to town and just before he left Rockhampton, he sent me a few texts that...

The good news is that although my foot is still sore and I must use a crutch to help me walk, I can play golf ok and I can row without pain! I am so pleased with that as those are the things that I...

I am feeling better today, part hormonal and part because i have heard from Mark and despite everything I feel better because of that.He sent a text in the late afternoon telling me he was...

I wondered if today would be worse than last week and I think it is. I just sent the one email to mark last week explaining where I was coming from and illustrating why I felt his actions last...

Today I have organized about 14 people to go out on our boat so it will be a day surrounded by friends. Apparently the whales are passing so I hope we see some.We have a huge boat which cost us a...

I got up early (5.30am) to row today so I am tired as when I have to set my alarm for so early, I wake all night. Unfortunately, that has set the scene for a bad day as I am tired. I need to get back...

Well, I took the clothes. I was shaking like a leaf when I arrived as it is completely against my nature to act on revenge or in a manner that is what I consider nasty, but I forced myself to do it...

Today I woke up feeling better and much more positive about how I should not want Mark back in my life. I was happy with that, as it was the first time.I am managing to keep the stress I face of...

thank god I have my own computer tomorrow as using the internet and my sons computer is quite time consuming on Hamilton island.Today In general I had a crap day. I was sad all of the day in feeling...

I have tyo admit, it is getting a bit easier, coping with the two of them over there. I am thinking of all the terrible things that mark has done to me over the last few years and even before that...

I am struggling as I also have a head cold now which makes me feel sick as well as miserable.  It is the fact that they are having a wow of a time in Singapore that makes me so upset. And how dare...

Well i was right. I sent him a text to ask if he had paid for her to go to meet him in Singapore and he sent me a text back "Yep. Will spend time and see what happens. Hopefully it will lead to a...

Today I went to the office to check on a few things while no one was there. I came across an email to our personal assistant that Mark had changed his flights, so I log onto his frequent flyer and...

last night I went out to a pub with a few girlfriends. One of my friends husband plays in a band. I had a real hoot. Loud, loud music in a small and not so salubruious venue, but great company. I...