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I cannot deal with Paul's depression anymore. He is negative each and every time i call him and no matter how i try he brings the conversation back to how bad he feels and 'it is all part of the...

Am tired from all the rowing and have lost the drive to go out and train at the moment. Luckily only one session left before Champs next week.  I am hanging out to do something different than rowing...

Well, things have sorted themselves out as far as Mark goes, for once again he has showed his colours. I am upset again, but not so bad. He has just reminded me who he is. He phoned to follow up...

Feeling ok, but still overwhelmed by Paul and his depression. Each time i call and try to talk about other stuff he manages to bring the conversation down. He is irrational and has let his fears take...

Am doing ok. The big change is that Paul seemingly has developed a depressive illness and he is not good at all, and I miss what he gave me each day, in the form of company, of chats, of phone sex...

Am puddling along again. Still the same issues with being a little lost. Rowing is going ok, but it is very hard to break into established  crews and our coach has paired me with a nice girl, but I...

Just a day where he is in the background. Telling me he is going to retire at 50 (2 years) which is a lie. That he has arthritic hands and cant operate.  That i should get a job not as a physio, but...

Having a rough day today. Mark has been on my back all day about financial settlement. He says he has things valued and now everything is valued less so i will have to take less cash...

In Perth with my family - sisters. Nice and good to see them. I have been away from here for a long time in my life with mark, so my sisters have interests a bit different to mine which makes it a...

I am doing ok.Bit confused from time to time about the direction i am heading and i think i have worked out why. I have Paul on one hand, who makes me feel completely loved and adored. I go to visit...

Arm slightly better, but still very sore. Had a bad day with it yesterday. Went out with the rowing coach in the tinny to watch the others train. It was a good experience and kept me in touch with...

Am puddling along again. Still the same issues with being a little lost. Rowing is going ok, but it is very hard to break into established  crews and our coach has paired me with a nice girl, but I...

Just a day where he is in the background. Telling me he is going to retire at 50 (2 years) which is a lie. That he has arthritic hands and cant operate.  That i should get a job not as a physio, but...

Having a rough day today. Mark has been on my back all day about financial settlement. He says he has things valued and now everything is valued less so i will have to take less cash...

In Perth with my family - sisters. Nice and good to see them. I have been away from here for a long time in my life with mark, so my sisters have interests a bit different to mine which makes it a...