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Still bumbling along.Same old stuff with Paul. We chat each day, I get frustrated from time to time, but am much happier now that I know he feels the same way about thinking long term about us...

So, things are puddling along. I was still upset after the Paul thing. Spoke to my therapist who helped sort it out some more.Spoke with Paul as well and we decided - and not sure if this was for...

Still not feeling much better, but the logic shines through every now and then. Had rowing so am tired, which does not help. I have been thinking more about why i feel like there is a hole in my...

It is Australia day. Tomorrow i have to go to court for my divorce hearing. Just a formality, as Nick is under 18, but still not a nice thing for me to do. Sad about that.Not that I want to be with...

Feeling a bit out of sorts today. Dont know why.  Xmas and mums death maybe. She would not want me to be sad though.Put a lovely memorial verse in the West Australian newspaper for  Boxing day -...

Well, day before yesterday was another bizarre day on Mark's part. He sent me a text at around lunch time to tell me that he would not be able to keep giving me money as he was moving to NZ, getting...

I have to write again!  I feel like screaming. it is ridiculous. So, today is my wedding anniversary, would be 23 years so i am a little sad - just at the fact that it all went belly up, and my...

My wedding anniversary today. It would have been 23 years.  Not too upset about it, but a bit grumpy today (maybe that is my subconscious). Just been up to Townsville for the weekend. Mixed...

One day, these bad days will be a thing of the past. God i hate it. Having a generally down day, and of course made worse by Mark. Really, i think the tone was set by him again yesterday and over...

Am doing better again. Tonight Paul comes to visit me in Brisbane and I am kind of happy about that.  I am a bit over traveling to see him all the time, so it is nice he is coming here this time....

Am not having a good few days, of course thanks to Mark. One day, he will not have so much effect on me - his bullying always gets me down.It started late last week when he started calling me and...

Not written for a while.Things are moseying along. Mark has been down in the dumps and suicidal and 'lonely' and has been ringing me a lot and of course wanting  to get back with me.  I dont know...

Plodding along.Lots of things happening from a positive viewpoint from my move to Brisbane.  Still rowing with Prue and she and her husband are great. Had a good time in Stanthorpe with them and 8...

Have been having a few good days with good things happening, like things coming on time and being busy and getting things done. All about me and nothing else thats good. In the background the usual...

My rowing at nationals went well. Managed to row the pair straight, which was my goal. We came a respectable 5th in the final, 15 seconds off the pace, but indeed ok for our first race together. Did...