last night he was almost like a different man again. A little more animated and interested in sex. A bit short with me when I helped with the boat, and not overly enthusiastic over dinner, but keen to continue with me and better than normal.He came over at about 10pm and stayed the night as we had an early flight this morning to Brisbane. We had sex and i think he had taken a tablet (the half of the cialis that was still in his unit), as he was quite enthusiastic - more than usual. I can tell.This morning he was again like a different man, purusing me and telling me we will be together and we will be ok. He was ok in Bris with the boys but gets pissed when they dont want to do things with him all the time. He comes here and cannot just sit or get interested in anything. I potter around and clean up and wash for the boys and look at my garden etc etc, but he just sits and does nothing. Like he has nothing else. I asked for help with the chores but he gave none.I am tired today and I again asked for a holiday to be booked for he and me in the first week of October as that is when he has time off work, but still he does nothing. It is like I am unworthy of spending time with him. It would be so easy to just say lets book something but as usual he holds back. And he has been saying he will book something for almost two months now. It is ridiculous and it will not get better and I need to get away from it.I sent an email to the womens travel group, and if he has not booked anything shortly I will join them on the Iceland trip for a week and then spend a few more days in perhaps Rome or somewhere. Or even a stop over on the way back. Dont know. Just the week will be ok too. He spent $6000 on holiday for fuckface and will not take me. It is like slapping me in the face and I am sick of the negativity.I think I need to be by myself for a while now. I like just watching tv and not going out at night but I feel there is something wrong with me for wanting to do that as he cannot sit still and hates staying home each night. I like just being in the house with my kids and doing that. Perhaps going out one night or two per week but not all the nights.Last night he again tossed and turned and wanted to talk about his problems through the night so he kept me awake most of the night. He thinks of it day and night and never gives a rest. It sickens me. I thought he was out of his manic phase into a depressive state but I see him creeping into manic again. He will be the same with her and she will be blown away by the reality of it all.Let her cope now.