I am pissed off today as I seem clingy again for him and I dont want to be. I was better the last few days and now I am back to wanting to be with him and I dont know why.I still see the same problems.He asked to come home last night after a nice paddle together and then it came out in conversation that he had not only texted her last week , but phoned her as well ( of course after he phoned me last week and cried in my ear), then of course there was the call the next day to make sure he was ok, and of course there just happened to be a text this week as well to say hi.Ridiculous. And the same place I have been in for 2 years. He has not changed. He sat at the bench, and asked to come home and admitted to calling her and then went on to tell me that he sees her as his companion now as I am cold to him.Of course I asked him to leave. Point blank. How can he say I am not his companion? It is he who has shut me out. He. I have tried to keep up with his moods that are hot and cold but I cannot.I am indeed tired of it all.And today for some reason I am clingy to him, like I want him back. Stupid.Then he just phoned me and told me that he just brought a unit for a million dollars in our investment company, and did not even talk to me about it? I n fact, I asked him last night if he had looked at those particular units just out of interest, and today he buys one. I am not a director, so I have no say. They are not finished for 3 years and do not settle until then, so I dont know what happens about splitting that when we divorce. I will have to ask my solicitor.So, in this last week he has been crying in depression, begging me to stay and asking me to have sex, admitting to contacting her and obessing over her, brought a new unit on the spur of the moment, been nice to me one minute and nasty the next.I have had enough in my mind, I am just clingy today and he has the upper hand. It swings between us. I have it and he begs, then he has it and I cling.Now he is seeing patients again and will 'call me when he is ready'.Fucking ridiculous.And he got pissed at Emily and said it was the last straw when she gave him the finger. So, he can be a bastard to his family and me, but we cannot do it back?? Wonder how he feels about the aborigines wearing his designer clothes - if he ever finds out???