I have been thinking about my whole situation and trying to be strong. I have not called nor sent any text messages to him.Just now he sent me a message saying "what are your thoughts today". I sent back "peaceful thoughts. I was thinking about how you need to nurture the basics in life"Then he answered a yes. I asked where he was and he said Hayman. And to make conversation as he started the text, I asked why they were in Hayman and not out at sea, was it rough? And his reply was "because we wanted to". Changes the tilt on the whole conversation which HE started and in which I though he was simply being friendly. He gives a bit, puts out the branch and then cuts me off.Fuck him I said and left it. Then I sent another and asked if he is using the footy tickets for sat night and he answered yes. when I asked if I could have one or was he taking Lindsay there has been no reply. What an arsehole.I dont need anyone in my life who treats me so poorly.In a normal relationship you would have nice conversations if one partner was away. How is the weather, what did you get up to last night, did you put some more supplies on board, when are you going to airlie, take care driving back and if you want to take Lindsay to the footy as he is your friend visiting, thats fine. Perhaps we can go out for cofffee afterwards, all three of us. Ridiculous that I cannot expect that sort of civil stuff from my husband.And fair enough if he does not love me or whatever any more, but it is him who keeps putting the branch out to me, he who invites me in, and then he ends like this.I simply have to not go in when he invites me.Today I got online again and had a chat with some guys. The one who seems keen on me came on line with "hey gorgeous". Now that made me feel absolutely fantastic. He may not be anything i like or whatever, but he speaks nicely to me and that is what i need right now. I spent about an hour on line and then i had to do some work as I go back to Townsville this afternoon. It will be quiet there as Emily is away for the weekend. I may have an early night tonight with the cats, but I am rowing tomorrow and then I can either play golf or help out with the corporate programme that is starting tomorrow so that will fill time and help me meet people. And I think I will invite myself to friends house tomorrow night or else ask some over to look at the footy in my theatre.I just have to soldier on and not react nor respond to his shit. He is pushing me away quite harshly in one breath and pulling me back intensely in another. If he goes back to her, I am going to send her an email that tells her everything about Hamilton, about the anger and the violence and how he was flirting with another and about that girl he also had while he had the two of us. I dont care. I know it will not make any difference to slut, but it will just feed that piece of doubt that she must have about him for I know she must not truly trust him. She cannot.