I am struggling as I also have a head cold now which makes me feel sick as well as miserable.  It is the fact that they are having a wow of a time in Singapore that makes me so upset. And how dare he say he got her over there to give it a try out between them?  Of course they will have a fantastic time. He just wanted a young chick to fuck for a week in Singapore.  To impress her with nice hotels and everything else.  I wonder if he will buy her anything.I have been trying to stop my thoughts like that. I am trying to think of all the nasty things he has done, for i tend to live in an ideal world when it comes to him anyway.He has abused me verbally for a long time, for years. When i did not have sex with him in years gone by, he would not speak to me untii I did. No joke. I used to hate it and I remember time and time again saying to myself that I would not live my life like that for the rest of it. I remember that.sAnd I remember being scared of his temper as he would break things, or say nasty things to others when trying to get his own way. I keep thinking that that will change with someone else, but it will not. It is who he is and how he deals with things. I keep thinking that perhaps I brought that out in him, but I must stop that, as he was like it when I first met him and i have smoothed things over countless times over the years to make things right with people when he has gone off the deep end. I hope that the stress of what he has done will play on his mind enough when he gets home and has to deal with issues with my and his kids anger, disrespect of the town and his peers as well as slotting into a lifestyle with out the fringe benefits of what I have given him. He does not make friends easily. It is always me who organizes things and I have people flock to me. We have a big charity ball next weekend (14th) for Ronald McDonald house of which I am helping organize. Most of the people in our town will be there - well the ones we deal with together, in the medical field and of course those most influencial in town. They know what he has done to me. They all love me.  Lets see how he holds his head up in town knowing I will be there and he will not.  Knowing they will hear the real story and not what he is trying to tell everyone - that is that he could not leave as I was clinging.  In any case, most already know courtesy of my best girlfriend as she is completely intolerant of his behavior and has told anyone important in town as she has the connections and the love of them all.,He is an insecure man at heart. She is as well, that is why she has to choose another womans husband and cannot get her own. Lets see how they cope back in real world. I cant wait until nedt week when they are back. I will just struggle through these next days and I have my kids here with me and we are laughing already. He has thrown away the respect of his kids and his old friends in Townsville for a slut.  Good luck to him.