Well, I took the clothes. I was shaking like a leaf when I arrived as it is completely against my nature to act on revenge or in a manner that is what I consider nasty, but I forced myself to do it anyway, in the hope that it would help.There were police there as the group was drunk so I asked the police if they minded me giving them a bag of clothes. The group was very excited and thankful for the clothes and there were lots of exclamations of glee as i exited. At least they will be warm and clean tonight, so that my act of nastiness has some positive.I am really struggling with the being alone thing today. I want what I had before. Before that nasty slut came into our lives. At least not so much then, but what we had when we both decided that it was a wake up call to us and made changes to make each other happy. Well, I made the changes...... He stayed the same. I have gone in a circle and I end up knowing that I am better without what I had. At least if I move on then I will hopefully find someone better.I thought on the way home I need to think of myself as being ill at the moment. To give myself time to heal as in any other ailment. Not to put pressures on myself to make decisions or any life direction. Just take some time. Does not matter I have no direction at the moment. I need to heal my broken heart. I have cried a lot today in private.