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dsf95
dsf95

first mass with new priest. Thinking about how my dad and then the old priest passed away last year and what life means. Saw a vision of the new priest as a priest- puppet while he was speaking; was this mental illness or the Holy Spirit showing me something about him? Being in the choir makes me part of the church and interested in the changes.


all my failures and mistakes haunt me. I can volunteer and try to be kinder, but the past seems unbearable. all the traumas are over and I'm calm for now. Sometimes it's hard not to obsess about being assaulted, but now so much of the past seems like bizarre dreams. Even my original trauma, my uncle himself, is a dying man in his seventies. Feeling numb sometimes 

arfie
arfie
I mostly see strangers as puppets. It's hard for me to see people as self-animated until I know something about them as individuals. I never rule out the possibility that the Holy Spirit trying to show me something, but I'd give the new priest the benefit of the doubt for now.

Staying reasonably busy helps me manage the obsessing and bizarre dreams from the past. Volunteer projects can be especially healing.

Continued support while you find what works for you, ds.
Krissy36
Krissy36
Hey, my past and mistakes haunt me also. I wish I could let it go. You're not alone. Are you on any med that maybe made you see that? If not, maybe it's your subconscious mind seeing him as a puppet for the church or something, or an intuition about it. Hope you feel better soon, and try not to be too hard on yourself, we are only human
dsf95
dsf95
It wasn't a hallucination; just a visualization that occurred to me while watching him. He did have very long arms and hands and the green vestment looked puppet-like! Soon enough, my mind gave me the image. I guess I should have been listening
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
I'm with Krissy, it doesn't seem that its meaning has to be a good or an evil, just a subconscious intuition about it. Like Krissy, too, I saw be gentle with yourself. You're obviously very caring and kind, sincere in your place in church.
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