All I can do is cry. I snapped at Carlos- well not really but I broke my cool and ended up crying in front of him. My back was itching really badly and he scratched it for me but then stopped. I asked him to continue but he said his hands were tired but the itches were driving me so crazy, i had to get rid of it. I begged Carlos to continue. I then just started crying. I couldn’t help it. Then i felt so guilty for crying. Carlos called me a cry baby, which made me more upset.
Later I cried again and Carlos hugged me and told me to talk to him but I couldn't say anything. I finally said I feel like everyone wants me to do so many things. I'm overwhelmed. I'm struggling and no one knows. I'm afraid to cry.
I have cried many times throughout the day. I have hidden it all. But I don't feel like I can anymore. I can't keep it in but it's not allowed to come out. I want to run away.
I had a bad bloody nose sun and today. I have no idea why, I never get them.
No word from Reflections rg a check in- they can go fuck themselves for all I care.
Later I cried again and Carlos hugged me and told me to talk to him but I couldn't say anything. I finally said I feel like everyone wants me to do so many things. I'm overwhelmed. I'm struggling and no one knows. I'm afraid to cry.
I have cried many times throughout the day. I have hidden it all. But I don't feel like I can anymore. I can't keep it in but it's not allowed to come out. I want to run away.
I had a bad bloody nose sun and today. I have no idea why, I never get them.
No word from Reflections rg a check in- they can go fuck themselves for all I care.
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I think you can forget about getting any word from reflections. I know it sucks and hurts but it is hopefully just an innocent oversight. If it keeps on bothering you, call them and ask them why you were overlooked.
Carlos\' hands got tired and he calls you a cry baby: please!!!!!!!!!! Tell him to buy you a frikken back scratcher if his precious hands get tired so easily.
I\'m glad you are crying, I do it too all the time lately and I try to do it when I\'m alone too which is ok, but I also can cry with Dwayne which is awesome. As long as melissa doesn\'t see me I\'m alright. I think people do know you are struggling but it can\'t hurt to make sure and tell them.
crying is ok and you are not a cry baby!! ohh poor baby, his hands got tired, boo hoo. i hardly think you ask much of him, pleaseee. i have been feeling the need to cry and it wont happen, i think i would feel such a relleaseso i think its good to have those times when you can let it out. hang in there hun.