Monday-Anxiety already

It's been a rough weekend.  My ex and I got into it on the phone yesterday to the point where I told him I did not want to see him again and would make other arrangements for the surgery...of course he apologized later and said he would still be there for me.  The other guy is out of the picture...guess he just wanted a booty call and I was so not into that.  I should know better.  Went to do the pre op tests on Friday....the didn't tell me they were going to start an IV and push bubbles through my heart...stupid shit burned like hell....at least with all my bitching the nurse went and found out what blood work they needed and pulled it with the IV in so I would not have to get stuck twice in one day. 
 
The anxiety passed at least as soon as I got busy.  Tired of always having the anxiety...just want it to go away but it never will.  I have so many things on my mind and I have not been putting anything down....keeping it all in again...trying NOT to act like a girl and just suck it up and go on...think maybe that's what got me here in the first place though..