missyS
Status: I have not been this happy in a long long time
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20 hrs......i go 20 hrs everyday without eating....then i FORCE myself to eat something...i'm not hungry at the end of 20 hrs...i just do it cuz i know i'm supposed to....i don't eat enough....but at...
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i feel as though i am in official ED limbo....not quite in love with my disorder...but not quite ready to part with it...i feel as though i am standing next to my disorder most of the time...and then...
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one thing i truly hate about this disorder is how i'll have like one or two days where i REALLY REALLY want to get better....and i cry, and then make myself feel better by assuring myself that YES,...
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im still sooo tired...i keep trying to make excuses for myself...like it would be that time of the month if i still got my period...or that ive been working all day everyday...and going to...
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i am so god damned tired all of the time....both mentally and physically...but it is the physical fatigue that is really getting me down at the moment....i will NEVER admit that i have no energy to...
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well my bff tracy keeps calling me and telling me about her drunken escapades in canada...she keeps telling me how much fun she had and how she wants me to go with her...she keeps going with her...
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ugh! the only thing im more digusted with at the moment other than my ED is the worlds view of EDs....i hate how everyone thinks that people with anorexia dont eat a thing....like tonight at bingo,...
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well i think that it's safe to say that james knows i have an ED...it hasnt been said overtly...but i let him in on the fact that the dr yells at me about my weight and that i go to see him...
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so my mom totally came into my room this morning while i was getting ready for work to inform me that insurance wont cover my therapy anymore this year...it wont pick it back up again til...
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ALRIGHT....this is what im gonna say to those individuals (ok individual) who dont wanna listen to me blubber about my problems any more...because apparently they are too self absorbed for some...
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god effin damnit! 123.......i am 123 lbs...i was 124.5 yesterday....y must my body be so difficult?......6 ft tall...123....not good....i have a dr appt tomorrow...fuck....i wanna fix this...but i...
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o taffy on a stick! my weight is now 124.5 and im 6ft tall...what's my bmi?.......shit shit shit shit shit........i was 127 a few days ago it seems...y must my body be so dumb? cant it just cling...
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ive hit a point where i know that i NEED to change...even if that doesnt mean recovering....cuz at the moment, giving up my ED scares me shitless....but i NEED to eat dinner with my family...even if...
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ok...im gonna admit something right here...i feel like crying right now...my feelings are so hurt....by my mother =(....ok so last night, james and i were star gazing outside/making out.....and my...
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so james just left about an hr ago.....omg it was amazing! he came over at like noon and was here til 11:30...the only reason he left was cuz my sister said that my dad was still mad that he was...
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