ugh! the only thing im more digusted with at the moment other than my ED is the worlds view of EDs....i hate how everyone thinks that people with anorexia dont eat a thing....like tonight at bingo, this woman shirley who is like my grandma said to me (and she knows about my ED...her son has bulimia, so she is familiar with EDs) "melissa, are u eating?"..and i said "yes"...and she was like "what? celery and lettuce i bet!"....these statements make me feel like a fat pig...like maybe im not anorexic after all because i eat more than lettuce and celery (actually i dont eat celery...i dont like it much)....or maybe that im a bad anorexic...that im not sick enough to be thought of as anorexic....this joke that my therapist told me once pisses me off like no tomorrow....heidi klum walks into a restaurant and sees cindy crawford at a table eating dinner...so she walks over to say hi...heidi approaches the table and says "hi cindy! i see that u r eating lettuce for dinner" to which cindy says "o yes, i am! i eat 1 head of lettuce a day, and that is all i have" heidi then gets this sickened look of disbelief on her face and she says "wow, a whole head? i only eat 1/2 a head of lettuce a day"
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OMG- I totally know what you mean about the not being anorexic enough! Its how I feel when I exercise and feel like I need food or at resteraunt where i finish everything and ppl feel need to comment. I feel like If I eat anything I\'m not really Anorexic- I hate it. If they don\'t accept and understand what I am like on oiutside they will never look deeper. I think ppl won\'t see how twisted up and desperately in need of help my head is in if my body doesn\'t reflect that
You should have just told her how you felt and told her if she has nothing encouraging to not talk at all because she was being ignorant! You aren\'t a bad anorexic, ED just wants you to think that so he can kill you faster. Keep fighting!
that\'s a sick \"joke\"
try to think of it this way....the best anorexic (or so it\'s been said) is a dead anorexic. do you really want to be in that category of statistics??
yeahh i know the feeling.
even eating alittle makes yuu feel like maybee yuur ed isnt real.and yuu kinda hve to prove itt.same thing wit not purgeing..
Stop beating yourself up! First of all, you want to get over this. Don\'t worry what other people say. Sometimes people joke when they don\'t understand what others are going through. Take it in stride. You can do this. Eating just lettuce and celery is not healthy at all. You deserve better. Really, you do. I believe in you!
hey, im not annorexic. bulimic actually but know what you mean. like a couple of my sisters know and even when i eat something really healthy their like watching me and when i need to go to the toilet there like (speaking into their hands) oh she\'s going to throw up. and even when i havnt eaten anything and i need to go their like \"ops. there she goes again\" and i know i do it all the time after i binge but its so annoying. i think it just comes from mis-understandings and mis-information about the disorders but it pisses me off none the less.
i know wat u mean abt not feeling like a \"good enough\" anorexic...ppl think that those with eds never eat anything of substance so wen i do eat something real like a protein i start second guessing myself and telling myself i must be normal...but really ppl just dont get it, sometimes its our own family that doesnt even get it! and if u think abt it ppl live years with an ed if they only ate wat ppl think they do then they wouldnt survive that long.
Your therapist told you that story? Ok..... I hate the world too, but oh well, let them be stupid, you know they will never understand. I try to laugh at it because it reminds me of how people just make fun of what is unknown *rolls eyes*.