god effin damnit! 123.......i am 123 lbs...i was 124.5 yesterday....y must my body be so difficult?......6 ft tall...123....not good....i have a dr appt tomorrow...fuck....i wanna fix this...but i keep telling myself that i dont deserve to eat more...and that if i eat more then i am a pig and that i will get fat...im afraid of gaining weight quickly...i eat like 600 calories a day...and im scared to eat more than that......shit
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honestly over the last two months i have had to painfully read your annoying journals honestly you are ebing pathetic and just plain retarded i mean honestly get your head checked you are so like a total so like iddiot your stories are so self centred and you just dont even truely care you are just seeking attention....i honestly can not stand one more of your journals and stories about going to the fair and making fun of fat people and now you are saying you want to change but you dont.....unless you are actually retarded you would see that your behaviour is pathetic
I think you and your therapist need to talk about this. That is his/her job to sort out the feelings that go with getting in recovery from this so take advantage of it before it is too late! Someone is going to find you out eventually, I know you don\'t want inpatient but maybe you need to go..... I think to be honest you secretly want someone to find out and get you the right type of help for you and that is good. I hope you don\'t get upset at me for saying this but I know I don\'t want to lose you and I know I could.
yuu got to try and eat.just add 600 more cals to yuur diet a day...and it can bee w.e....eat a shit load of salad..just get those cals in!!..casue that the only way yuur weight is gunna go upp..yuu havee to cee that yuu desever to eat and being happy wit yuurself is worth it..
You do deserve to eat! Just try and add alittle more each day. If you can\'t stand the idea of gaining weight, maybe try adding some healthy foods with more calories like avocadoes or nuts.
Yeah, you\'re dropping fast and I hate this disease which makes us feel so unworthy of food and the weight we so desperately need. It blows. You are such a wonderful person and I hope you start to believe that you deserve all life has to offer. I can\'t sleep, and I have another hour to kill before I leave so I\'m glad I got the chance to give your ED one last kick in the ass before I go. I know you\'re scared. Me too. I believe in you. XOXOXOXO
You deserve to be healthy and happy and to eat and to enjoy it and to live!!!
i don\'t think you are pathetic a mater of fact i can totally relate. i am not sure yet why i have such a hard time eating, what causes it but i do know it is real. i don\'t know why we think we have to be so thin but i do it to and i don\'t think we are doing it just for attention and if we are there must be a reason we are seeking that attention. i will be praying for you and you just keep your chin up and know i am here and i do understand. we can beat this my friend, we can. hang in there.
i cannot believe what that candice chick said! we are supposed to build each other up on here!!!!! im gonna speak to her.
i want to say something, but i\'m not sure what to say. i don\'t think there is anything to say though. if your doctor throws you in the hospital, just know that i am there in spirit.
I\'m 123 and i\'m 5\'6, and I look thin. I am in pain at this weight for myself, so I can only imagine what your body is going through.. Don\'t listen to any negative comments you recieve. When you are truly ready you will do it. Look at me with my drug/alcohol/smoking abuse, I made the decision in my mind that it was enough. I was almost dead so many times, yet I still continued to drugs. You sound like you are in the same vote as me. You have to face what is going on instead of just trying to shove it under the carpet. Take some charge in your life! :)