well i think that it's safe to say that james knows i have an ED...it hasnt been said overtly...but i let him in on the fact that the dr yells at me about my weight and that i go to see him alot...and that i get blood taken ALOT...and he has seen me eat (pick at things)....so im pretty sure hes onto me...lol...and hes still with me! wowim not too sure how to feel about the therapy thing...i tried to call today to inform her that i wouldnt be returning until january due to insurance...but no one answered the phone...how reliable is that? so i tried to leave a message on the machine...which cut me off....so i ended up only being able to leave one that said my name and my number to reach me at...so now i must wait for them to call me back grrrri had a 9 am class today...ugh...got up at 8am...after having a shitty night of sleep...i usually rely on sleeping pills to knock me out...and they work nicely...but i was afraid that if i took one and didnt have 8 hrs to have for sleep then i would sleep through my alarm and miss class...so i didnt take one....ended up tossing and turning all night and getting 3 hrs of sleep...got up...went to school in my pjs...no makeup...but i did brush my teeth lol....talked to james on the phone on the way to school...he kept me awake =).....then after class i went home and slept from 10:30-1:30....and now i feel much better!it's poker night tonight...im at school at the moment...kind of avoiding going home cuz they always eat a huge dinner b4 poker...so i hate being around for that...so im at the library waiting it out........o what a fun world an anorexic has huh?