so my mom totally came into my room this morning while i was getting ready for work to inform me that insurance wont cover my therapy anymore this year...it wont pick it back up again til january......geez...guess my recovery isnt quick enough for the insurance company......does everyone else recover in the alloted time? well, to tell u guys the truth, im a bit pissed about this, and a bit relieved...im relieved cuz i was just talking to my therapist about only going every other week...which she said wouldnt be helpful, and if i was gonna plan on that then to jsut take a semester off from therapy..so i was gonna do that...and think of how to tell my parents...but then i went through a tough time emotional just recently, where i figured out that i desperately need my therapist to talk to....luckily, i cried and cried and cried, and now i am in a better emotional state (for now)......so i think that i can get through without my therapist for now....but see now...my therapist wouldnt see me unless i saw my ED dr and my primary DR...then she agreed for me to just see my primary dr...who in turn said that he doesnt wanna see me unless i see my ED dr.......so now that i dont see my therapist...then i dont need to see the ED dr......hehe bwahahahahahha.....not good for my health at all...or my recovery =(i didnt have school today...i dont have school on thursdays this semester...this is the first time ever that i have a day off from school in the middle of the week........this is AWESOME....lol...i got to work today and make money! how exciting is that? and now that i dont have to see my therapist on tuesdays, i can work during the day, and then attend class at night!i totally went to bingo tonight with tracy (neither of us won)...and she told me all about her blast she had last night in canada...she got shit faced drunk....and said it was a blast...i asked what was so fun...and she said all of it...and i was like well what did u do? she was like we sat at the club drinking.........she said i would understand if i drank....but i dont drink because of the calories =(....yet another area of my life that my ED has fucked up...every time i think of alcohol i just think of where the term beer belly came from....and im sorry, but a few drunken laughs just arent worth a potbelly in my eyes
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iff yuu still wantt to cee someone, yuur college would probly provide sum type of therapy for yuu..yuu should askk.
yuu got try and work wit the docs hun casuse its gunna help yuu get better.and i understand how hard docs are to deal wit but it can help yuu..
Don\'t ever drink. Why do you want to \'sedate\' yourself or \'posion\' your mind to something it\'s not? I fucking hate people who say that. Who say, oh you don\'t understand because you don\'t drink. I lost my life due to drinking. When it comes down to it, drinking is the root to MOST problems. Don\'t you ever feel pressured to drink. I love feeling healthy in my mind and body due to not drinking. Think of me, think of me stripping to make money to support my drug and alcohol habits. It\'s fucking discusting. I spent over 30,000 dollars on booze and drugs last year. Anyways... I can\'t remember what you are taking in school again? I\'m taking 4 courses plus 30 hours a week of work. I know i\'m going back to working fast food, but honestly, it was the best interview, and it\'s great money for what I need. It\'s fast paced, and I hate food, so seeing the fat people makes me look at that gross food as bad. Do you have any local group therapy you could go to? I know there are free ones here at the Mental Hospital? Anyways... Have a good day tomorrow!
oh hun, im sorry that things are getting messed up with ur therapist and drs...i know part of u is probably happy, ive experienced that many times too, but i really hope u will still find some motivation to keep urself as healthy as u can and get bak the life u deserve.
Uh....insurance sucks...I know too because when i was in the hospital for 2 weeks we had insurance fights...and same with trying to find an outpatient therapist that\'s covered with our insurance and one who would wanna take me(since I was SUCH a risk..who knows I might never recover and then it would be the docs fault, right...grr)..anyway maybe working more will keep your mind off ED a little more..who knows...I totally understand the beer thing though...I guess that is the ONLY positive thing about ED\'s..you don\'t drink...NOT saying ED\'s are worth it or positive in themselves in any way though....also..I just wanted to say THANKS for caring about my journals..youre sweet too!!! Jenny
I know, believe me, how complicated things can get with insurance. Just have faith that it will all work out, you can only do what you can do. I hope you get a support team lined up, if you already havent. Love and hugs from your inpatient buddy. XOXOXOXOXO
I dont drink either! ITs sucks eh? No pleaseure what so ever but the ol exercise! Makes social things all the harder tho... was at a picnic yesterday eve... hmmm... me+picnic... already a nighmare... managed to get away with nibbling on a carrot stick most of the night... oh and had an olive too... spat it out tho... oil... THEN to my horror, my boyfriend poured me a glass of his homemade elderberry champaigne... lush tho it is, I saw the amount of sugar it took to make it... I couldnt drink a drop and had to tip it on the floor slowly... I so hope no one saw me.. I feel ya girl... its rough!\"