im still sooo tired...i keep trying to make excuses for myself...like it would be that time of the month if i still got my period...or that ive been working all day everyday...and going to school...but i know it all boils down to...not enough energy is going into my body....i worked a 2 hr shift today...and then went and applied at a day care center (put on this whole show about how i love the little bastards...i mean children)...then i went home and slept from 2:30-4:30....then i had enough energy to jump in the shower and head off to class....ED was congratulating me for napping rather than eating somethingi cant help but wonder...what is it gonna take for me to clean up my act? do i need to have a heart attack or a stroke? or do i need to start passing out for me to start doing something about my ED?...sadly, i think that the answer is YES....hopefully, none of these things will ever happen...but then does this mean that i will never bother to recover? cuz i dont think that i am THAT bad off?
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being tired sucks.and just makes everything harder.has yuu know.
i cant givee yuu some magic potion that will make it better..casue if i could i would.
i know telling yuu to eat will be annoying but its all uu can really do...and caffeinnnn is alwaysss goood :]]]
If you want to work at a day care center, you are going to have to leave ED at home. I worked at a day care years ago, and you are expected to eat lunch and snacks with the kids. My mom also used to work at a day care and my sister currently does, and all day cares are like that. The kids are expected to finish their meals, and how are you going to get them to do that if you are not eating?
Seems to me you need to contact your insurance and tell them you NEED your therapy because something has to be done before you do have a heart attack or worse... Die! I don\'t know how to go about getting them to give a rats butt because I have a hard time myself with them and I have a medical condition that they think magically disappeared when I turned 18! Imagine that....Message me sometime.
Sometimes you just never know what it\'s going to take. I mean hell I had a stroke and look at me, I\'m still very active in my ED. I honestly think that it\'s just one of those things that litteraly you just wake up one morning and something just clicks in your brain and you decide that you\'re done. I know that\'s how it was for me and my cutting.
I think you know the answer. It\'s just scary to actually start doing the things you want to do. I think you are on the right path though, keep being strong.