DepressedRecluse
Status: I.AM Worthless! - I.AM Pointless!! - I.AM NOTHING!!!
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- seriously need help...I don't know what to do...My husband and I haven't had sex in over two years!!!During those two years I have satisfied my self through masturbation.However, over the last four months, no matter what I do, I can't cum!!!And I...
- I seriously need help...I don't know what to do...My husband and I haven't had sex in over two years!!!During those two years I have satisfied my self through masturbation.However, over the last four months, no matter what I do, I can't cum!!!And I...
- and nobody gives a damn!!!So...The way I see it, why should I...At this point, I hope I make it till Friday!!!10 JULY 2017 UPDATE...............I lost the will to live a long time ago... I only hung around because my Mummy was sick and needed...
- I've been struggling with congestion for the last few weeks...also shortness of breath at the slightest bit of exercise...I did was looking for something yesterday, so did a lot of strenuous activity moving stuff and cleaning and dusting...needless...
- Okay...what the hell is this ...now!!!...As you know...I've struggled with Depression...Anxiety...Insomnia...Suicide...and NOW!?...Well now...I don't know what the fuck this is...I can NOT for the life of me...quiet or silence my brain...or my...
- So...the last time I went to see to see my therapist... he told me some interesting things based on his observations of me...Apparently... I am 'guilty of the sin of PRIDE'...this made me think of a song I had been listening to...that I had also...
- So...I realized today...that my brain does not work...at all.. I have racing thoughts ...but I can't actually formulate any coherent thoughts...And when I am trying to get something done I can't focus on anything much less whatever I am working...
- The fog is starting to lift... It's still dark...but the fog is starting to lift...no light yet...not even a speck.I haven't had much sleep in two days ...yet I've actually accomplished more in two days than I have in the last month and a half... I...
- I've been in bed since right after Thanksgiving...no energy or desire to do anything...just think about death or dying...I have no desire whatsoever to live ... But I don't have the courage to kill myself...I really don't know how much longer I can...
- Have been for a long time...Now I've been struggling with cardiac asthma for over a week...I can't breath...I am miserable...and it hurts...I want to die but I don't want to suffer...I have a high tolerance level for pain and suffering...but I don't...
- I've been having cardiac asthma symptoms for a week...And it is getting worse... I cannot breath and I am miserable...it hurts too...
- since my last post...nothing new...just more of the same...anxiety attacks, rage episodes, no desire to live...I am just so tired of life right now...it is so effing HARD to get through each day...and I don't see no hope or light at the end of this...
- I don't know if this can be considered a negative post or not - so I'll leave it to your discretion whether you wish to read it or not -The last time I went to see my therapist - he gave me some homework based on something I told him ... This...
- BUT... I don't have the courage to DIE!For those of you who don't like negative posts...this is a negative so you might as well stop reading it NOW! Anyway...I lost the will to live a long, long time ago...but I don't have the courage to die...and...
- Sorry...but I am now having a bad day... Everything about life sucks...and I just want to be done with it! Really I do!!!But I don't have the fucking courage to do anything...and I am to tired to do the easy stuff...like work on my bike / truck......