Your post was very coherent. Don't give up on yourself. You will gain clarity again.

I agree, your post was highly cogent. In fact, I related to it. It does get better, even when you're convinced it never can. I'll pray for you.

Even years after "treated" mental illness your mind can still become mush. I've been having trouble with my mind lately. Its scary. In my case i need to try and reduce my meds. On too many.

Keyword: untreated 'Most' mental illness is highly treatable. Give it a try.

I have read some of your past posts and it sounds like you've been struggling for a long time. Is there a reason why your mental illness has not been treated?

Do you have structure during the day like a job or a routine that you follow? Do you have friends or family who can support you?

Depressed Recluse,
I have been depressed all my life so I empathize with you. Treatment does work though. If you find a good psychiatrist who also does psychotherapy, the two combined can work wonders. Is there something in your past that you have been unable to look in the eye? I know there was for me. I have look said that (dark) secrets cannot life in the light of day. That is to say, get the secrets out and the light will shine in to replace them. Consider yourself to have received a long safe hug from me. Hang in there, as WanderingVet said, most mental illness IS highly treatable.

SO!...I went to my Therapist on Tuesday...and a Support Group meeting last night...and I still ain't no better...

My mental illness is untreated because of myself...I am my own worst enemy and harshest critic. I am self sabotaging myself because I honestly don't care...

I ... I ... I just can't...don't want to...anymore.

FUCK IT!!!...I am ... I am going crazy!!!

I think you do care or you wouldn't be posting. Sometimes you have to buckle down and do what you have to do. That means getting treatment. Dont let anything get in your way. You can do this.

No words. I want to help, but what can I say? It all comes down to being my own best friend, and that's not always easy to do. I try to find a safe place in my head, when I use to like myself. I challenge myself to go through the everyday matters that need to be achieved. Is that faking it? Yes, sometimes it is. But in keeping up with life, no matter what it takes, it's giving myself time. And hope. And other good things in life. No words, HA! I have lots of advice for others, sometimes it's based on experience and sometimes it's based on hope. It always helps me to see the gentler side of myself. You're here and that's good. Thanks for being here.

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