DepressedRecluse
Status: I.AM Worthless! - I.AM Pointless!! - I.AM NOTHING!!!
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- Thurs.7/12 - Today is not a good day...i don't feel well...but it is my own fault...for the last week I've woken up with a stress headache...i did today and it's still there...my day is disrupted by my husband being home...and tomorrow my son comes...
- Mon.7/9/12 - Last week was hard...he was home from work for four days...we had a fight on the third day and we haven't spoken since (his choice, not mine)...he went to his brothers house on the fourth to barbecue and then came home with food...on...
- Mon.7/9/12 - Last week was hard...he was home from work for four days...we had a fight on the third day and we haven't spoken since (his choice, not mine)...he went to his brothers house on the fourth to barbecue and then came home with food...on...
- ...and now my situation has gone from bad to worse :(I haven't had sex with my husband in well over a year, maybe longer ...and I really do miss it...He's an addict and we have a very strained relationship...but in the end...I still love him...want...
- that is how I feel i right now and it is not a good feeling either...OK...so here it is the 7th of July...and so far I've just wasted another day...yesterday was a long, hard, bittersweet day...and I thought I would sleep last night but that didn't...
- It is already the 6th day of July and I've done nothing but waste the first week of another month...why? because of others controlling my feelings...i literally forced myself to get up and go downtown to cash a check that I begrudgingly had to ask...
- I posted this under the depression support group...but I wanted to post it here also...since the reason for these feelings is my addict husband...he hasn't used since november but his addict characteristics are becoming more and more prevalent...and...
- after our fight the other day, i just completely wasted the fourth of july...and now today, that he's gone of to work and my son has gone off to enjoy his summer, I am home alone, like I love to be...but I am feeling...DEPRESSED!...UGH... I hate...
- The following is the text of an email I am sending to my faculty advisors for a stipend that I think I am entitled to. As it states I have expenses this summer that I must cover including health care, transportation, and getting my son off to...
- The feelings are back...Frustration, Fatigue, Fear, Failure...and they all lead to depression... My husband has been home from work since Sunday...and today, after his dr's appointment, and after we ate...he just starts nagging at me about shit...he...
- The feelings are back...Frustration, Fatigue, Fear, Failure...and they all lead to depression... My husband has been home from work since Sunday...and today, after his dr's appointment, and after we ate...he just starts nagging at me about shit...he...
- I went to my second step study meeting today! I am actually enjoying this 'recovery' thing...I don't know why EVERYBODY doesn't do it. Recovery forces you to sit down and be quiet and listen...listen to your self and to others...focus on yourself...
- I went to my second step study meeting today! I am actually enjoying this 'recovery' thing...I don't know why EVERYBODY doesn't do it. Recovery forces you to sit down and be quiet and listen...listen to your self and to others...focus on yourself...
- What I need to do, I don't do...what I want to do, I can't do...and...what I don't want to do, THAT is what I do!!! yeah...I am stuck on that...I laid awake last night...thoughts racing through my mind... trying to figure out how to get out of this...
- how do you find the energy or the motivation to do the things you have to do...I know what I need to do...but I cant find the energy or strength to do it...WHY? I spend my days thinking...i really need to do this...or I really need to do that...but...