I have read some of your past posts and I know you struggle a lot. In fact I am always relieved when I see a post here from you because I know you are still with us. I have been battling severe depression for 25 years with very few breaks. The pain I have most of the time is so overwhelming that I can't even speak. I can't work and I can't take care of myself or my house. My husband has topay all the bills and pretty much does everything. And yet I found a reason to keep going no matter what and that was my family. Do you have someone in your life you can keep going for? If not can you keep going for all of us here at this group?

I don't know the details of what you are dealing with but I know if must be pretty bad given that your therapist allows you to be suicidal in order to feel better (and yes I have been there too!).

I don't have any magic answers for anyone. I wish I did. If I could I would cure everyone in a split second. But I can listen and offer support. You can private message me if you want or post here and I will respond. Meanwhile please hang in there as best as you can.

I know things get tough at times but like heide I also enjoy seeing your still here too....hugs and feel better soon....

I give a damn and I hope you make it till Friday too. I don't know what else to say. Wishing you wellness and peace of mind.

I feel the same. I have major depression.Many people does not care. But there are people who care. Are there any single clubs in your town? Maybe church groups. I went to speed dating. There are strangers who cares.

I'm feeling you on this. My family are the worst on me. I've been battling depression and anxiety for years now. They jus don't realize how truly someone who suffers this is stronger than they know. We battle our minds daily. Keep on fighting don't let it win. There is always someone to talk to here that get it.

Depression sucks! I know the feeling. Keep coming to the board and posting.

I give a damn, I care about you, your worth more than anything I could ever wish for in this world, so why end it?

It's only a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Everyone you know and love will be devastated if you did something, were all here for you just ask us what you need- friendship, advice, someone to talk to, opinions, or even support.
I personally have coped with my depression after being abused for 10 years by both my mom and my dad. If I can do it you can, all you have to do is keep trying, do your best.
Anything is possible, I believe in you.
((Hugs)) -Skii

So you're saying why should you which?

why should you keep living, or why should you kill yourself?

I'm assuming you intend to imply why should you keep living but I'd be more inclined to ask the latter question. If nobody cares if you live or die, then who cares what they think? Why would you even care? To me that would be a licence to go ahead and live free of inhibition and care.

But the reality is that it is entirely in your hands what will become of you, and you are the one person who will be impacted by your choice.

So make sure you make the best choice for you.

Most of us here care. I want to see you overcome your trial and help another going through similar trial male it through to help another.

I can't claim I am in your shoe but I do understand feeling unworthy and hopeless when the life that I thought I had was far from where it ended up.

You will look back someday and you will be proud that you persevered to see the reward. Counting on you.

It's always so refreshing to come here and see that there are many "real" people who in fact do care. The world can be cold and uncaring sometimes and many people who have not experienced the pain of depression, can seem like they don't "give a crXX. Deep depression bring lots of feelings of inadequacy. Getting through a day when you're depressed is hard; trying to be perky, upbeat and positive can be impossible. Thanks to all of the members of this group for always being there for each other. It's an amazing thing!

"I'm assuming you intend to imply why should you keep living but I'd be more inclined to ask the latter question. If nobody cares if you live or die, then who cares what they think? Why would you even care? To me that would be a licence to go ahead and live free of inhibition and care": Post-note: For me, having people who care helps me to feel wanted and loved. I don't think that feeling like nobody cares if I live or die would make me feel free, just more alone in this world. I think that there are a lot of people here who DO care, because we are all experiencing this illness together

Talk to me... what's going on? Why do you feel this way?

I lost the will to live a long time ago...
I only hung around because my Mummy was sick and needed me...But when she passed away in 2015... I was left all alone in this cold cruel world...
I struggled to stay alive in 2016 but each day that passes...It gets harder and harder as I realize more and more that nobody cares whether I live or die...
So...I am convinced that if no one else cares...Then why should I?

And on top of everything, I have this "personality disorder" that makes it extremely difficult to break the rules...
So I've learned...to maintain a three-day rule...Rather than go through life one day at a time...If I can make it three days at a time, I manage to just struggle along.
But...It is getting more and more difficult to make it three days at a time when I have absolutely no desire whatsoever to live one more minute in this constant never ending state of pain.
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That's all folks...
It.is.finished.